Yasmin and still alive

Dejay, I was at that point, too, believe me. There were times around starts of 2005 where I just lived from day to day and the only consolation was, that I could end my life by myself if I should feel that I really can't take it any longer and nothing gets better further on.... I really had given up myself totally!! Without any hope for better days and I went through that for about 4 months. On some days my husband didn't know if he would find me still alive if he came back from work in the evening because I was really on the edge.... So believe me, I can imagine how Kim's doing right now!!

But it definitely needs more time than Kim already gave it!! It's not done within about 6 or 7 weeks. That's what everyone around here keeps telling her day by day.

And this should give her some hope: We ALL are still here and got through this all. I've been on Yasmin for very long 5 years and today I still don't know if I'll ever be back to the 100% old me, cause I still got problems durin my period and around ovulation, which sometimes really makes me desperate.

But with only 3 weeks on Yasmin there should be really hope to feel better so much earlier than we all did!! But please tell her not to give up everything that fast as she's doing now. Everything she tries to do against the anxiety needs time and I mean weeks, not only days!!!

Give her a big hug from me over the phone dejay and tell her that she MUST try to finally get some hope in her head. That's the only thing that helps.

Perhaps another thing that helped me sometimes: Everytime I felt the anxiety or got a panic attack I kept telling myself: It's all the Yasmin (and after getting off: It's all the hormones trying to get back in balance) and nothing will harm me, it feels very uncomfortable but it won't kill me!

Out of those words I told my self I took so much consolation and ability to go on still another day.

Kim and Dejay, you will get through this, I promise. And in a few months you both will be here in this forum telling other women the same things as we do now!! I'm so sure!!!

Sorry Kim,

you had asked for an answer of Sarah, so I didn't react on your post.

But another thing: I really don't understand, what else you want to hear from us! Sarah had told you so many things, you could try to help with the anxiety. Did you even read her posts? And sorry, I don't think, that you really tried EVERYTHING prior to Lexapro. And if you did, you didn't do it long enough!

You wrote that you had tried Kava, St. Johns Worth, Valerian and nothing helped... Well, you've been off the pill for 6 - 7 weeks, am I right?? So how long have you taken each of the meds you've mentioned??

The only thing I can say a hundred times again: You need much more patience than you have. You can't be cured within a few days, that's a fact and that's what you have to deal with. We all had to and we're all still alive! And you will be too, I promise!

Kava and Valerian and all the other mentioned pills need a few WEEKS until they can show any effect! So I really ask myself how you will have tested all of them within only 6 weeks??

Why do you want to go off the Lexapro again after such a short time?? You don't give anything the chance to help you somehow because you can't await an effect. Your health should be worth more time and patience that you give it!!

Sorry if my words may sound hard but seeing that you don't take any advice from anyone makes me a bit enraged (and please remember: I went through pure hell, too and I definitely know what you are going through right now!!!).

All we can do is tell you the same things a thousand times , but if you don't hear any of them and do, what everyone tries to advice you, no one here can help! It's YOU who can change your situation and TIME and no one else out here!! We only can be here and talk to you and give you some advice and tell you that we've all been there, too and are still alive and that you WILL be better some day; the rest has to be done by YOU!!

Best wishes

Silke

Dear Silke,sarah and all new comers.

Well on Nov 9th i hit the 12month mark off yasmin and to all the newcomers i owuld like to say i have been reading these posts for the whole year and you are all where i was and in some ways still am. Do not get me wrong I HAVE RETURNED TO WORK, I CAN LEAVE MY HOME, i do not get someone to ring me at 7am every day to see if i am still alive as i truly thought i would die in my sleep and all that was my anxiety.Sarah i too got charles linden tapes and they helped me a great deal i ordered them over the net one night when i was desperate and i was so thankful. take each day as it comes and i know that is so so hard i remember last xmas being exactly where you all are, silke telling me i was going to be ok and as i served xmas lunch i was pooping into my computer to read posts to reassure myself i was not going insane. I have come so far and so will you all. Some things are still there, i still get heart palps sometimes and Bilberry is great for the eye floaters i got it in a health shop and its great, I gain weight like no tomorrow and my gp is a woman whom agress with everything being said here and this week has ran all the relevent tests again to see where i am at. I am also seeing a chranio chiro whom changes out seratonin levels and he is running a urine analysis of he hormoes and metablics so stay tuned to that result. I just want you to know that its so hard but its gonna get better i gave my job up i was so full of anxiety etc and now i am back at work and loving it, Silke do you still get the bloating as my face is puffing a lot lately and the chiro is waiting for the results to get me something
sorry for rambling
take care,and merry xmas to all

LISA

Chrissy - You are absolutely an adorable charm! Right now I'm in bed, as I've been all day, my 'watermelon' is too heavy to lift so I've propped my laptop up. I'm glad, unfortuantely, to know that there are other people that have been here and are still alive! I ate a small bowl of oatmeal to keep my stomach from eating itself but I have no desire to even cook for my family.

So many are on Yasmin for birth control but I'm on it because of the cysts so I don't know if I can stop, yet, or if there is an alternative. I've considered a holistic center just to get my body off of any foreign substance but I'm afraid of the cysts growing. My doctor is on my poo list because I have to wait until 30 January to talk to her. I have two more packs to go through, but remember that I don't do the white pill week, I keep doing the yellow so that means I have about seven weeks left.

This is just insane. Here I thought I was getting sicker from the cysts growing and my estrogen increasing, but I'm experiencing illness from the meds that are supposed to be CURING me. Ouch. The first week or two of the Yasmin I felt disgusting but not at ALL like I do today. If it gets progressively worse I'm definitely going to take my ovaries out and mail them to the company that makes Yasmin.

Ewe. That's gross, but not as gross as how I feel right now.

Thanks for listening - AMEN for this board!

XO
Kelli

Hi Sherry!!

No, the weight gain didn't ease up at all..... And I feel your pain, too!! I've been controlling my weight now for about 2 months (I therefore even bought a new digital scale which also shows the body fat you have...) and the weight even went up another 2 pounds since starts October without eating cakes and chocolate or anything else like that.... But at the moment it seems to have stopped (it didn't move for about 2 weeks now!). And believe me: I HOPE SO!!!

I'm totally caring about healthy food with less calories and how much I eat. Excercising for me is still not really possible because of the some days still upcoming muscle weakness I had been suffering from since december 2004. And even if it is not as bad as it was, I'm not able to workout or go for a walk longer than about 10 minutes a day... I hope this will get better soon (well, it already has gotten better, a few months ago I wasn't able to walk even that 10 minutes!!)....

It's so depressing to look into the mirror, see how fat you have become and not be able to do anything against it... :(

Well, in that times I try myself to remember, that it still needs time and someday everything will be ok. That's the only thing that keeps me up a little...

The next tour with my band (February 2006) I've already canceled (the second band-tour within 13 years which I'm not able to join and everything just because of this wonder drug from hell....), because I don't think that until February I will be fit enough to handle that stress and I don't feel that I will look like the old "silke" until then... I can't go on stage at all in such a shape... I would be ashamed to dead...

It's all so sad, but I have to be thankful to be still alive after all that I went through the last year...

How are you doing Sherry?? Has anything helped, yet? How about the water pills??

Best wishes and god's bless to you out there!!
Silke