Yasmin and water down

I had posted here a couple weeks ago and have jsut read through some of the posts since then.

Suffice to say I am on month 3 of Yasmin and for the past 2 days I am in FULL BLOWN panic attack. I have not been able to talk myself out of it much and as a result I have not eaten since Tuesday night. I am barely holding water down. My heart has been racing too. I have noticed slight symptoms getting worse and worse with each cycle and I am so done with these pills. Honestly I am done with any bcp. I have tried to get my dh to get 'taken care of' and he won't consider it. He has no concept of emotions like I am having; like most men I guess. He just thinks I need a hobby or something....yeah whatever.

I am stopping this pill today and I have a call into my RE/GYN's office now. I have tried several bcp's over my life (I am 35) and they have all given me some sort of bad side effect. I have tried low dose, I've tried high dose and inbetween and they all end up bad for me. I have PCOS so my RE is pretty adiment about me staying on a bcp regimen but my quality of life with my kids from day to day means a lot to me. They're 4 & 1 and need a mom that is happy, energetic and not this puddle of fear and misery.

It also irritates me that doctors play dumb to the correltation of symptoms from bcps; it's like we don't know what we're talking about yet we LIVE it every minute of every day. I feel crazy enough right now and I don't need a doctor telling me I am because his medical book says it can't be the bcps.

Denise