Yutopar and nine times

Hi. I'm not a mother worrying about the side effects on my child.
I'm a male, born in 1979.
My mother showed the first risks of premature birth after 15 weeks. Her doctors must have been unaware of the dangers, because she spent her whole pregnancy under yutopar. I show no physical or mental abnormality, although the tests were thorough...
Yet, many strange things kept happening. I used to cry for hours without any obvious medical reason during my first year. As a child, I was normal... but vaguely distant. As if there was a layer between the world and me. Some incidents also happened. When I was very angry, I developped an abnormal strength and strarted devastating my surroundings, as if in a trance.
These symptoms (Then still unexplained by psychologists and doctors) lessened at 15. I graduated at 17, first of my school. I had friends, a girlfriend, and everything seemed normal, I was just considered an "original".
But at 18, my mind collapsed. I had always experienced some difficulties to focus, but there, all my thoughts seemed to run madly, forming unlikely associations, and leading to severe delirium. and yet again, no diagnosis matched my crisis (and believe me, I begged them to find one !). My parents kepts putting it all on behave of my occasional drug consumptions (a little canabis and alcohol), and ended it all by throwing me out. I tried to end my days nine times, and spent 1 year and five months in psychiatric hospitals since my first crisis.
I am now a full-engineer from one of the most notorious colleges of Belgium, but I never felt I was fit for this world, and have to keep a very tight grip on myself to prevent the crises. The best explanation I got from the psychiatrists is that I am "mentally unstable".
Only a few months ago did I relate it all to the problems my mothers had encountered during her pregnancy.
Honnestly, I do not know if my problems are due to yutopar overuse, or if the early pregnancy interruption was meant to prevent my birth because of some inherent abnormality.
I wish I knew, but not for me... It seems to be a bit late to change anything. But if that drug is the source, I would urge the doctors to investigate further on, because my life on the whole was a very unpleasant experience.
I would add that, in the last few weeks, the only side effects of yutopar I found were about the mother. I don't even know if these mental symptoms were ever studied, or recorded.

F.
Ing Inf
R&D Scientist