Zyprexa and grand mal seizures

I gained 20lbs in one month. Stopped taking it on my own. At that rate I'd be obese in no time. Dr's have diagnosed me as skitzophenic, Bi Polar, and finnaly temporal lobe epilepsy. Any others with temporal lobe epilepsy? I get symptoms which are similar to other mental disorders. But since I've been on anti seizure meds, I have been much better. I get episodes periodically, sometimes I'm ok for 5yrs or more. It's triggered by stress. I've been takin Lamictal for it and no side effects. Anyone with a mental disorder should look into temporal lobe epilepsy. My Dr. is Dr. Braverman. His office is in Manhattan. He does a BEAM test to rule it out. The BEAM test involves putting a skull cap with electrodes in it to moniter changes in the brain. Flashing light and noises are used during the test. He found an area of the temporal lobe which was a hot spot. It seems that there is a bundle of nerves there which fire during a seiaure. These trigger other nerves to fire in the brain and it escelates until I get racing thoughts and begin to act abnormally. I've taken many different drugs and all have side effects. Most make the problem worse. When I realize I'm getting worse, I refuse the medication and in each instance, I get better. The first time it happened, I was 18. They put me in the mental ward in the hospital and gave me drugs for skitzophrenia including Thorazine which is the worst drug of all. I finally realized that the only way to get out of the hospital was to hide the medicine under my tongue. I came out of it after I stopped taking the drugs. Everyone told me I had to stay on them, but I refused. I was fine for four years without any meds. Then it happened again and the same thing happened as the first time. I am very leary now about taking any drug. The Lamictal has been the best one for me so far. I only have a problem if I'm under severe stress. Alcohol can also trigger it. I don't get Grand Mal seizures. Dr's don't know all that much about the brain. They give these drugs by trial and error. If one doesn't work, they try another one. I feel best when I exercise, take vitamins, and eat healthy. I also begin to smoke when a seizure starts. I can't sleep during the seizure. Dr's try to get me to sleep whith various meds. But I always stop taking them when I feel better since thay all have side effects.