PredniSONE Pulmonary Fibrosis, Chronic Asthma, Parnets, Breathing Treatments, Legs and Feet

I was born with very chronic Asthma and to parnets that should have never been parnets. Also I was born in 1969 when what Doctors used a different things then today. I as a child slept with a tent around my bed that locked and zipped from the outside so I could not get out and the meds where blowen into the tent and I breathed it in all night if I could sleep. My parnets would also be told to keep me in a dust free room and NO SMOKING well that all fell on deaths ears. My mom would go through 4 marriages and smoke a ton I would be in ICU and she would tell me that she told god if he let ther child live she would be a good mom and stop smoking. Fast forward I lived past what all doctors thought I would live through. But damage was done. On steriods I could not sleep my moods would swing like crazy I would puntch out windows. My mother would put me in mental wards by the time I was 17 I had been in so many hospitals for my asthma and so many mental wards for my mental health. Now I am older and I my Asthma turned to C.O.P.D. and Pulmonary Fibrosis,with CHF I have now been steroid dependent at 80mg every other day for 6 years and I have never really had the weight problem I stayed until the last 4 years 140lbs now I put 100 pounds! It seems to be water it sprays out of my pores in my legs and feet people dont even know me when they see me. Of course my Mom who has plenty of money will not help Me she will not even see me!!!!!! I am now in a wheelchair when I was a kid that YES was very sick but tried on good days to surf and ski when I was younger I am a musician. Because I am sick and I have sister that is not she is really her only daughter it makes me so depressed. It hurts me so bad.Now I am looking at turning 40 my own mother tells me I was to be dead a long time ago! Someone help me PLEASE with all this water!!!!!
If I where to die I would feel ripped off I want to live not survive life. Please help me my teeth in the back are chipping from breathing treatments. I am now O2 dependent at 5 liters and in a wheelchair.
My Mother lives in a huge 6 bedroom house with a swimming pool I need a pool but she does not want to see me like this. She tells me its to much stress for her! Somebody please help me help myself PLEASE sometimes my one foot is so swollen I cant put a shoe on my legs are always dripping water, I am scared so depressed HELP ME PLEASE ******